When I first wrote this title out, it was going to be "Some Thoughts on my Aging Face." Because that's where I'm kinda at with myself right now. Trying really, really hard to accept the aging process. Not because I look SO OLD, or anything like that. I am perfectly aware of the fact that I look younger than many women my age. But that doesn't take away from the fact that my face and body have changed and it's an adjustment. I mean, obviously this is good because it means I'm not dead. Which is really nice. But it doesn't mean it still isn't weird to look in the mirror sometimes and see a new wrinkle, or wonder WTF is up with this mystery pain that I've had in my elbow for the past two months.
Theo sent me this beautiful video last week, and it kind of gutted me. Life seemed to go so fast all of a sudden. I'm so AWARE that I'm not as young as I used to be, and can get easily frustrated with my body because it doesn't work like it used to, or when I see a new sunspot or wrinkle on my face. And, yes I know 30 isn't OLD old, but it's old to me because that's where I am right now and things are just starting to get wonky.
Which brings me to aging gracefully, or I suppose, just my thoughts on what that means to me and how I can do it. As always, these opinions are my own and are what work for Lourdes. Which may not be what works for you. As the great Amy Poehler has said, "Good for you, not for me." And to me, aging gracefully means accepting where I am, feeling comfortable in my body, and moisturizing more than I ever thought any human being could possibly moisturize.
Prevention has always been my motto, so I'm just gonna keep on keeping on. I'll step up my eye cream game for sure, no more "natural, chemical-free" eye creams. GIVE ME ALL THE CHEMICALS I WANT THEM ALL. I have some pals my age who are dabbling in Botox, but I don't think I'm there yet. Definitely ready to do a nice chemical peel though. I'll let you know how that goes once I can scrounge enough money for that.
Til then, I'm gonna keep moisturizing, masking, stretching, and focusing my energy on keeping the body talk positive. I will age gracefully by not referring to myself as chubby, or flapping my turkey gobble arms in Theo's face, or spend time in front of the mirror counting my wrinkles. One of the best parts of no longer being a working actor has been to relax on the constant body and face policing. So I just want to keep going in that direction, doing what makes me happy and fulfilled, and also feeling pretty. Because that's important to me!
Now if you'll excuse me, there's a brownie waiting with my name on it.