I know, I know. I disappeared straight off the face of this blog this past winter, and it looked like I would never be seen again. But here I am! In all honesty, I found it near impossible to write about my work or life when I was drowning in the despair of the current political situation. And in some ways, I am still struggling. It's difficult to reconcile writing about makeup and clothes when it feels like so much of the world is collapsing around you. Being a lifestyle writer in times of turmoil caused somewhat of a reckoning within, but in many ways also affirmed that I love the work I do and want to move forward with it.
I have always been a politically-minded and active person, and that is never going to go away. But I am working hard to not be so consumed by the news or allow our current climate to cause self-doubt. I value the kind of work that I do, and I don't need to justify it when times are tough. Though, admittedly, it has taken me a while to get here. Lifestyle writing is valid and has meaning because, like all art, it provides an escape and distraction, and I think we can all agree that we can DEFINITELY use a distraction. So here I am, attempting to carry on.
All this said, Light in the Heart no longer really serves the purpose I really need it to anymore. I am now paid to write about beauty and style on other websites — something I am thrilled about and eternally grateful for — and now need something ... else. I need a place to check in, work on my writing, and ruminate on all the topics that interest me. I've always been reticent to have a personal blog because I am a pretty private person, so don't expect any salacious diary-esque entries, but I do want a bit more wiggle room in terms of the topics that I tackle.
I will obviously still cover beauty and babies here to a certain extent, though perhaps not in the way I had previously. If you want shopping roundups and recommendations, just check out my work at HelloGiggles! I may veer ever-so-slightly away from the topic of babies and nannying for a bit, because that chapter feels a bit behind me now. Also, I'm really enjoying leaning into my spinsterhood. That said, OF COURSE it'll come up sometimes! I love kids and babies and still have lots of stories to share about my time as a nanny — it shaped who I am and informed so much of how I see the world. It just won't be a specific, main focus. I hope that those of you who were here for the kid content stick around and see what you think.
I'm super excited to have a little more breathing room in terms of the topics I cover here, especially all the things I'm passionate about like what books I'm reading, the places I want to travel to, the music I love, and so much more. And with that comes an official re-brand! I might be in the minority here, but I LOVE switching things up. I want my blog, and it's title, to reflect who I am and the work I'm doing. As you probably noticed, Light in the Heart is now officially called Mistress of Myself. For the time being, you can visit lightintheheart.com and it'll take you here, but mistressofmyself.com is up and running (spoiler alert: it's this exact same site) so don't panic about missing anything. I'll phase out the Light in the Heart URL eventually, but for now you'll just get re-directed here. You might see some funky new design changes in the coming weeks, but nothing too jarring, I promise. You know me, I like things simple and clean.
And in case you were wondering, I got my new title from one of my favorite Jane Austen novels — Sense and Sensibility. It will come as a shock to no one that I am a life-long Austen devotee. (Has anyone else noticed that Jane is strongly back in the zeitgeist right now? Girl is having a moment.) And while I'm that person who re-reads Pride and Prejudice every December and watching the movie every time it's on TV, Sense and Sensibility has always had a special place in my heart. My dad took me to see the movie when it came out and it was my first introduction to Austen (and exciting new feelings, thanks to Alan Rickman.) After that I never turned back, devouring all her books and making my dad take me to see every new film adaption. It obviously contributed to the development of my extremely problematic views on romance. (WHY has no one EVER carried me through the rain?!?) But this quote is particularly fitting, especially when I'm feeling like it's more important than ever to have a strong hold on myself.
"I will be calm. I will be mistress of myself."
And with that, I hope to chat soon.